And Then Tomorrow Became Today

As children, we always wonder who we will be when we grow up. We hit high school and people begin asking us what we want to do when we finish school.

I never knew what I wanted to do. I never had any plans, hopes or dreams. I didn’t have a vision or a goal. Rather than aiming for some lofty mark, I always just strove to do my best and I felt good about it.

Although people seemed to think that I ought to know what I would do, it never bothered me that I didn’t. Leaving school and growing up were still years in the distance.

I knew that God would reveal his plan to me in his timing, There was no need to stress about it. I always felt at peace, even in the midst of uncertainty.

Eventually my schooling came to a close. I applied for university and thought nothing of it, just going through the motions. All I knew was that I still wasn’t sure what God wanted me to do. I needed a break from all the studying. A year to clear my mind, relax and listen to God and speak to him. I filled six journals that year.

A few weeks ago, my beloved ‘gap year’ neared a close and 2013 came looming into view and I still didn’t know what God wanted me to do. Constantly being bombarded with the question ‘what are you doing next year’, I would reply with what has been my back up plan, “I am going to study a double degree of Secondary Teaching and Arts, majoring in English’,.  The second question inevitably came, “In Newcastle?”. And although I had secured my position, I still replied, “I don’t know”. I wasn’t convinced. I might choose to explain that I had applied for Sydney University or the University of New South Wales, but then again, I might not have been bothered.

“Next year” quickly became ‘”this year” and having to reply “I don’t know” when asked what I was doing became quite unbearable.

How can one not know? How can one have no idea where they will be in a month’s time? Where they will be living, studying, working? How can I not have any idea about what will happen THIS year?

I struggled to be patient, to wait just that little bit longer to hear from God, to make the right choice. Not to stuff it up.

Will I move to Sydney and study down there in a sea of brilliant opportunities? I got in after all, and not everyone does. All the doors have opened up, even accommodation unsought after. Am I wiling to step out of my comfort zone and trust God with something new? Or will I stay in the city I’ve lived in my whole life and continue living in the comforts of my blessed life here with family, friends, work etc?

Well, my dear friends, you shall just have to wait and see!

While you’re waiting, why not take time to contemplate your own future. Is there something unforeseeable? Why not place your future in God’s capable hands.

Check out this awesome quote by Corrie Ten Boom: